Saturday, October 29, 2005
Had a bad day AGAIn.....
So damn demoralize by today's paper....... not enough time to finish the paper and my next paper is ER. What the hell~ Have to keep telling myself not to slack off. I am seriously not cut out for studying...... but .... thats a fact I know ages ago. HaiZ...... stupid degree..... stupid exams....
Gonna sleep..... and start studying for my next exam! Don't want today's stupid exam to affect the rest of my other exams...... Found a nice poem...... change a new song too because this one suits me more now ..... Zzzz
Feel the Breeze
Feel the breeze
Anytime Anywhere in your heart
Feel the breeze
Never stop walking now
The numbers of wounds that won’t vanish are increasing
It’s like the wind is piercing me.
Those little worries you keep to yourself,
I’m sure everyone has some now.
Of course the night is long,
And you sink down deeply.
When the sun rises up in the morning,
It will be gleaming.
Someday the future you dreamed of
And now will be a little bit different.
The tears shed for dreams,
Keep shining without fading.
Your heart will always watch you,
With the feelings that tear your heart apart.
Feel all of your dreams eternally,
Overflowing like those summer clouds.
@1:39 AM
My legs are aching..... I need more PRACTICE!
Was feeling bored yesterday and I did the unexpected! I went for a jog. Hahhaa.... my contact with civilisation since Wednesday. I job for 2 rounds and walk for one round. That exercise had my gasping for air -_-!!. Seriously I sux at it and I am glad I am not a guy or I would be dead if I go to army.... hehe.... now My legs are like aching. Maybe I should start jogging.....
Exam on Tuesday. Today gonna start my MR revision and the last paper is on the 8th..... HaiZ...... feel frustrated and stress already....... So I needed some angry music!! New song Papa Roach " Last Resort". Its a nice song after you listen to it a few times... so ya.... enjoy.....
Artist: Papa Roach Lyrics
Song: Last Resort Lyrics
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don’t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
I’ve reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don’t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide
Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
HungryFeeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me
I’m fine
Nothing’s alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running and I’m crying
I’m crying
I’m crying
I’m crying
I’m crying
I can’t go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don’t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide
Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Nothing’s alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running and I’m crying
I can’t go on living this way
Can’t go onLiving this way
Nothing’s alright
@10:15 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Nice drama!!
HEhe.... I am talking about the Jap drama I just finish watching "Gokusen". Its a darn nice show. Something similar to "GTO" except in this case, the teacher is a female and the daughter of a mafia grandfather. So funny and touching at the same time!! The story is about newly graduated Kumiko Yamaguchi who wants to make her mark on the Japanese educational system as a teacher. Everything was going smoothly till she finds out that the school she'll be teaching has its fair share of troublemakers. The ruffians at the school don't frighten her though for she has a secret of her own-she's a fourth generation crime syndicate member and next in line to head it up!! However she wants to go the right path and be a teacher just like her parents. She's one teacher in whose class you don't want to be caught fooling around! Sooo..... sounds interesting huh?!? Watch it then =D . I love it ....
You must be thinking why I have the time to finish thise 12-episode drama. Haiz..... well that is the reason why my studies is still not completed. After staying at home for so long, I feel like a hermit and I have lost touch with the outside world. Anyway.... my dear friends!! Don't ask me out until the 8th is over alright?!?! Cause thats the last day of my exam......I know its a bloody long time .... but but..... be patient!! I will bug you guys to go out with me after that .... hehe....
Anyway.... a new song by Black Eye Pea " Don't Lie". Its a very catchy song, something you can hum to.....
@11:13 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
My CyberWorld of PINK.....
Its my PC acting up again. Now my screen is bright pink in colour!!!! Everything I see is pink on my PC screen. HaiZ.... its the stupid monitor. It keeps changing from normal to a pink screen. ArgHHh... so frustrating. It can be counted as a blessing in disguise I guess. When the screen goes pink..... I have to study cause it really hurts my eyes and I start to have headaches if I look at the screen for more then 5 mins. I told my bro to help me replace with the spare monitor in the storeroom after my exams. That is the only way to really make me study.....
Sigh~ countdown to exams..... and I haven finish studying my ER. Sometimes I wonder..... why do I even have a exam schedule plan out when I don't follow it??!?!
OH..... GREAT ... just GREAT.... my screen went PINK again!!!! Thats a cue for me to go and study.....
@11:57 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Whew~ what a relieve
My heart was beating so fast last night when I heard that the OE pair project is out. Reason? One of my friends had failed and my pair work project had the same concept and same research notes as them! I was so glad when I found out we pass!! I feel sad for my friends though since I was mystify why they did not pass. It seems that it might be the way they presented the answers.
HaiZ.... now I can feel the difference between the university standard compared to the poly standard. I remember during the poly days when NO ONE fail their projects! Even for those who fail its like 5% out of the whole marketing module. Now at SIM its scary. I keep seeing friends around me failing their projects and its nerve-wrenching as you are thinking...... will it be my turn next? AhhHh.... alright.... be optimistic..... be optimistic..... I still have the exams to go through....
To all those mugging for their exams..... you are so not alone!!! Yaya.... you have got tons of people suffering with you and going through the late nights if it makes you feel better. Evil me sure felt better knowing that =D. AND..... don't get sick ya? Its study week and not a good idea to get sick at this time. JunZ is sick and call me up for a chat just now.... said she had a fever last night. GO see a doctor and take care alright?! Hmmm... its weird though.... Liang Jie sms me that Barry was sick too!! LOLX...... It seems JunZ and Barry can actually telepathy and get sick at the same time.... hahaha!! Anyway.... Barry take care too.... maybe you will be so sick you finally get a chance to go home and rest huh?! Your dreams fulifiled! LolX... eat whatever heaty food you can get your hands on..... >_<
Anway, I was thinking since I am such a Jap drama and anime freak.... I'll like to know my name in Jap! Ya.... so I did this quiz. Type in my name.... and tada~ thats my jap name..... alright. I know its lame but ..... oh well...
| Your Japanese Name Is... |
 Misako Inokuma |
My bro is coming back from Sydney tomorrow!!! YEA!! That means presents for his little adorable sis here. Bwhahaha!! I so love getting presents~ I reminded him before he went off.....keke.....
New song!!! Titled "1,2 step" by Ciara feat Missy. Its a funky and groovy song. I like it! The MTV is so darn cool with their dance moves !! Enjoy the music =D
@1:28 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Mugging days are back.....
YEpZ..... I tried really hard to concentrate, sit still and REALLY REALLY study. Results? Half of OE completed....Zzzz and only now am I starting on MR. Too many things distracting me at home!! I keep doing anything other then study. Oh ya.... my dear mom bought sushi for my lunch cause she knows its my favourite. So Yummy!!
Anyway, JunZ, Geraldine and me is going to study in school tomorrow. Thats the last resort since nothing seems to be working.
Before I go off, I will end this post with a pic to express my present feeling......
@12:43 AM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Darn.... its official.... my worst nightmare
Went for a dental checkup yesterday as my back tooth has been kinda pain for these past 3 days. The dentist confirm my worst fear that my wisdom tooth is growing out. I have to admit I have a phobia of extracting my wisdom tooth after seeing my bro and sis in pain and so it look so bloody!! Geeze.... I will be doing this mini-surgery after my exams as advise by the dentist....
Anyway...... studies wise..... well..... hMM.... not much progress. Only finish half of my OE chapters.....I'll switch to MR now. Putting ER till the last as I HATE that module. The notes is like so fucking thick!!! 2 thick ringfile of it. Totally not motivated to look at it....
Lyrics to my background music...... from "One Tree Hill" soundtrack again. Haha~ its nice can?! Enjoy it!!
JIMMY EAT WORLD
"Work"
If you only once would let me
Only just one time
Then be happy with the consequence
With whatever's gonna happen tonight
Don't think we're not serious
When's it ever not
The love we make is give and it's take
I'm game to play along
All I can say I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh oh oh
All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you
Come on would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure
All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Yeah - We still have time
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you
Work and play they're never okay
To mix the way we do
All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
We still have time
oh oh, oh oh ohoh oh, oh
@1:00 PM
@11:30 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
YOSH~ Ganbatten!
Today I will start studying and prepare for my exams. All the projects are handed up so there are no more things to worry. Really really wanna do well...... so I can get my Sony Ericission phone! Will start studying OE first since the reference books I borrowed from the library is due soon. Hhahaha....
Ooo.... I actually went to the "Corpse Bride" website and its really cool! I am actually thinking of buying the soundtrack! Hehe~ will see if I have the money. Wanna hear a sample of it?! Go to this link http://www.warnerbrosrecords.com/corpsebride/ !!
Ok... I change my background song again. This is one of the soundtracks from "One Tree Hill" titled "Come On" by Ben Jelen. Its quite an old song if I am not wrong. It kinda nice.....
BEN JELEN "Come On"
And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
[CHORUS:]Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she goI wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
[CHORUS]Cause each of her kisses
How my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale
[CHORUS (2x)]Come on..
Off I go to study!!!!!
@1:32 PM
